Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Let it gooooooooooo....

I finished my first manuscript.

I finally let it go.

As a recovering perfectionist, it's hard to let go. As my faith has strengthened, it has gotten easier and easier to let it go. Before, I would hold on to that grudge, that mistake, those hurtful words. For days. Ouch. It's like I got stung by a bee and left the stinger in. For a long time.

So I hit Send and off to the publisher, it went. Did you hear my sigh of relief?

Have you ever held on to something for too long for fear of the unknown? What would happen if you finally let it go? That relationship? Those hurtful words someone said to you? The idea of something better, different? Oh, Fear. Hi, how ya doing?

When I sent the manuscript into virtual space, I thought to myself, "Let it go, we've got this, let's just wing it from here!" What in the H-E- double hockey sticks is this lovely piece of work gonna do sitting here, collecting dust, making small changes here and there in my documents file? I would just nitpick it until I was six feet under. Seriously.

My faith brings me to a place where it will all work out for the best in the end. I believe this for all of us. I know I want to make a change in my life, I want to help other people, and use the gifts and talents God gave me. I know, too, that to make positive shifts in my life, I gotta get uncomfortable and just enjoy the ride good and bad.

It was hard for me to send the document. I face the fear of criticism, self-doubt, the unknown. Someone told me a long time ago, "when you surrender to what you know in your heart to be true for you, you surrender to you. You give yourself the gift of you."

What they didn't tell me it would be so hard. So scary. So difficult.

As I listen to the wisdom of my soul, I hear it. I hear that worrying is a waste of time. I hear that I am doing my best and following my heart. It rests in the Universe's hands...

Are you listening to your soul's wisdom? Are you letting go of something and then having the faith to "wing it" from there? I would love to hear about it!

Join me! Let's "let it gooooo" together!

Love & Light,